Taking Notes on Motivation

In class we watched a video on motivation. Watching and try to take notes on this video was kind of hard for me. Now don’t get me wrong this was a great video on motivation, but it was too fast for me to jot something down. What I did get to write down about motivation was that motivation should not be rewarding, gifts, and great outcome. That you should do things just because you are willing to make an impact on the world. I say this because if there is always a reward at the end then you won’t do as good as a person you does it because they like it.

Motivation is our desire to be self directed. When you are motivated to do something you should always have a propose for doing. You should never do anything without a propose because then if you get off track you will lose focus on the big picture and won’t bother with it anymore.  

God in Your Eyes....

To me God is a powerful man that I serve. Whether he is black or 

white I serve him. I am a Christian who serves a powerful God and in class today we were talking about God and his Son for a little bit. The question was if he is black or white because the teacher showed a picture of him and he was black. And if Jesus is black does that make God black to. That is a good question. 

But does it matter what color they are. I think not because they are still going to mean they same thing at the end of the day. That’s all should matter. God is whatever color you want him to be. 

What Make You Happy!!!

Why are you never happy with what you have? Why do we need money to make us happy? Why do we need love to make us happy? Why must we have to receive something from our loved or anyone to make us happy? Why do we need jewels, cars, a big house, and name brand items to make us happy? I asked this thing because it is what the economy tells us we need all of these thing to be happy and if you don’t have all these thing then you are considered to not be happy.

They say that we need more than what we have to make us happy. It like the economy never wants us to be happy at all. They feed us all of these things as if they want us to spend money to be happy but they never tell you is just say look around and look at all the wonders of life or look you’re not dead so you should be happy. You don’t need those entire things to be happy. I am a middle class person and I can tell you that I don’t need all those things to be happy. Even the poor say they don’t need all those things to be happy. They say all they need is to wake up the next day and they will be happy. So if that all they need then it should be the little thing to make use happy. 

                          

                 I AM BREAKING GENERATION CURSES

 

I will not get pregnant in high school or at young age. I will graduate from college. I will not marry a low life. I will set goals for my life and I will follow them. I will not have breast cancer. I will not have a heart attack. I will live to see 90 + years of age. I will be a healthy person at an old age. I will follow my dreams. My family will love in spite of.

These are the generation curses my sister and I have to break. We have done some of them already. My mom, her mom and her mom’s sisters all had children at a young age or in high school and same for my dad’s side of the family as well. My sister and I are the first to be the one without children on graduation . My grandmother broke the breast cancer curses that was on this family so we don’t have to do that one. But for the rest of them we do. All I can say is that we as a team is going to have fun breaking all of this CURSES!!!!!!!!!!

                                           

Independent woman

What is an independent woman?  a woman how don’t need a man. A woman who can handle her own. A woman who has her racks up. A woman who pays her own bills. A woman who keeps herself looking good for her and not no man.

This  saying "Independent Woman" has been going  around for years now. People putting their own meaning to this word.  It is an ideological impression to believer in no doubt, successful, and educated women in a male dominated society. Being an educated woman myself, I completely agree that women can and should  be able to achieve such a status. However, women often have to put up a fight in order to receive the proper recognition. Possibly that's where the term "Independent Woman" came from.  

Why is it that we relate that term with freedom, unlimited sexual experiences, relaxation, and confidence? "Independent Woman" somehow seems to have a negative connotation to men. Often men mock this concept and associate it with women not needing men or even wanting them. This simply is not true for all "Independent Women", but then who is an "Independent Woman" anyway?

Be yourself !!!!!

If you are not yourself then who are you?  How will people know you? How will you know you? Does this mean that you have a lot of personality? 

Self is who you are on the inside. The part that only people that really know you get to see. It is ok to show this inside of you that no one knows. It’s how you let people in and see the real you. You are supposed to be free. Stop listening to society and have so fun. Just being yourself. Let lose. And know that the world does not make you. You make you. Also that showing your colors is great make you. be yourself and do you.

I served it

Breast cancer is nothing to play with. It kills lots of women each day. Breast cancer is not our friend it our enemy. It wants to hurt us and our families.

 Breast cancer is a cancer that starts in the tissues of the breast. There are two major types of breast cancer. Ductal carcinoma starts in the tubes that move milk from the breast to the nipple. Most breast cancers are of this type. Lobular carcinoma starts in the parts of the breast, called lobules which produce milk.  

in this picture she has just started to grow her hair back and my
cousin had an award assembly that she felt she could not miss even
though she was so weak. she put on a smile for her grandchild on her day
to smile

My grandmother had to go through breast cancer. She went through breast cancer a year ago. She has served and is just fine. My grandma still has her days were she is weak. It took some time and had some hard day’s really hard days to get through but she made it and if she could do it than anyone can do it. But it may be hard because everyone takes it differently. My grandma was a strong woman and fought through it all. She still went through her day as if she was if she did have breast cancer. Yes there was those days were she was just out of it and was weak and was in pain but there were not a lot of those days thank God. She had my whole family there with her day by day. During that year my family was mostly evolved around her 24-7.

Yes this was a terrible thing that happened but my family looked at is as if was a time to relax an go along for the ride. The little children did not know any better so they made jokes. For my grandma we as a family all cut our hair. She my dad and little brother went bald and my mom ,aunts and  I just got styles  and my sister shaved the side of her head. AS a family we had fun with this breast cancer!!!!!!  

There is more to me then myself !!!!

I am  not just my skin, my hair , how I look, the color of my eyes, where I live, what I drive, and what my necessity are.

I am family, how I make a difference in life and to others, how much I care for people.

Thandie Newton delivered a wonderful speech. Yes I said Thandie Newton. Didn’t think a gorgeous woman like her can’t deliverer a powerful speech but she did. She said“…dancing and celebrating with who’ve survived the destruction of their selves in literally unthinkable  ways destroyed because other brutalized, psychopathic selves all over that beautiful land are fueling ourselves addiction  to iPods, Pads, bling, which further disconnect ourselves from ever feeling their pain , their suffering , their death” (paragraph 12 line 1).

We just cannot live in ourselves. We have to go out and help people and we can’t do that if we are just stuck in ourselves. The world does not revolve around you.  There are others in this world that can use your help.  We were put on the world to help each other out when times get rough. (Hard to dell with when we just don’t feel like being here anymore.)

 Hurricane Katrina hit the USA. So the least we can do is feel a little of their suffering ,and their pain just for a little bit of our life. I think by them knowing that the rest of the world care about their tragic incident and that it didn’t just hurt them that it hurt us to made them feel warming.

  So many people gave their time, their love, their sweat to help this people. The people of this triage didn’t just stay feeling sorry for themselves they want to the other parts of the USA and started their lives over. Meaning we don’t have to hide out pain and how we feel about a situation  behind iPods, Pads and bling also work and were we went wrong in life. Tell your story and go on with life.

It’s not just about education

Everyone can be smart but to take your intelligence to a whole new level you have to  step out that box and remember that intelligence is only part of your character and  by  adding your morals to your intelligence  you just won’t be smart. You will have something to share with people.

The people will look up to you and not just say there goes that smart person they will say that the person that gave me something that I can teach everyone else that I meet in life.

Martin Luther King Jr. was a wonderful speaker. He gave this speech “The Purpose of Education” Which spoke about how being educated does not mean that you are book smart to your background but also morals.  Martin Luther King Jr. said “We must remember that intelligence is not enough” (paragraph 6 line 1).

Give me your trust and I won’t lose it again

Or

Receiving trust

“Leave me alone, I just don’t want to talk about it. “I said leave me alone!”  This is what dad says to me whenever I try to open up to him. When he says these kinds of things to me I feel hurt. As if he doesn’t trust me or want to know me, but at the same time if he won’t talk to me, then neither do I.

My father and I no longer trust each other it’s a long story but basically, I learned to stop trusting, him and many other people in my life. I also learned that I’m not to be trusted if my own father doesn’t trust me, who else would?

For me, trust is about caring enough to hear both sides of the story. My father doesn’t. He basically believes everyone before me

It’s a different story with my mom. She trusts me. When my father and I stopped speaking. I totally shut down. I would come in the house and not speak to anyone. I would simply go to my room and shut the door  until it was time for school the next day.. I would shower, I’d eat, or I’d watch TV in the family room , but only if no one else was home. I felt like I wasn’t wanted, so I disappeared.

But one day, sneaking back to my into my room my mom after taking a shower my mom firmly invited me to sit down and “Have a talk”. She wanted to with me. She was giving me a chance to have my say. At first, I was afraid she was going to blame me, but she spoke in a way that made me feel as if she really wanted to hear what I felt and thought.

 

Where my dad would speak to my grandmother, Aunt Brandi, and Aunt Leeanna, anyone but me about our problems, my mom actually wanted to know how I felt. She let me be angry, sad and confused without telling me my feelings were wrong. She listened. This made me feel valued and loved. Once again. Her simple act of listening helped me trust her and myself again.

I realized now that listened is a crucial part of building trust. I trust my mom with my feelings, and I felt closer to her. A much as I want to talk to my dad, I wonder if I am willing to listen to him?

She wanted to work with me. She was giving me an inch of her trust back.

I’m glad she wanted to know what I thought and felt , I didn’t ever know what I thought or felt  until she got me to talk . She believed that I had something to say about the situation and that I need to talk about it.

My mom is the reason I am the way I am today. If it was not for her I would not be so caring, so easy to talk to. My mom is both of those things. It was like she understood me.

This made me think that as a child and growing up with this will I ever be able to the one to go up to him again and try to talk about the past or will he be the one to bring it up with me and will I find it in my heart to listen to what he has to say about the problem since how he has treated me for the past years have been bad and not loving. Should I care what he thinks now or eve